Peter...

I find myself thinking about the dialog between Jesus and Peter right before Jesus was crucified. Jesus tells Peter that he will deny Him and Peter is persistent that will not happen and even tells Jesus "Even if I have to die with you. I will never disown you."

I can almost feel the emotion coming out of Peter, I can sense him being offended that Jesus would even say that. Then later Peter does exactly what Jesus said he would do... He disowns Him and not just once but three times...

But it really isn't that part that has me thinking... It is the fact that Jesus knew that Peter was going to mess up, He knew that Peter was going to make a mistake, He knew that even with his good intensions Peter would not live up to the call.

All of this and Jesus doesn't belittle Peter or make him feel insignificant, as a matter of fact later Jesus uses Peter in a very powerful way to spread the message of Christ.

So it has me thinking... I wonder where in my life I have failed, messed up, not lived up to the call? I wonder how many times I have beaten myself up over it only to have Jesus waiting to charge me to do something that is so much bigger? I wonder even now if there is still something Jesus is waiting to give me, but I've been too busy feeling sorry for myself?

What about you?

I'd love to hear your thoughts...